Patience is something that never came easy to me. I suppose it's something that you grow into as you grow up. I've never heard anyone make that a new year's eve goal or actively pursue patience. You just wake up one day and realize, you have it. For me, I've woken up to realize not only do I have it: but I probably have too much of it. I've got excess, to the extent that I may even forget that I am waiting on something. Or, perhaps, it's not patience that I've achieved, but plain old forgetfulness and a full fledge case of scatter brain.
I've been actively trying to lose weight since November 27, 2010. When I put that date out there, I realize what a long time ago that was. Half a year has nearly come and gone through this effort to lose pounds, and my success has been gradual. One might even refer to it as a failure, if one was not me. My glass is half full, and probably with some type of diet coke, skim milk or v8.
I've been up some weeks and down others. To the people who see me everyday of my life, they probably think I am lying about even losing weight because it has been this gradual seesaw.
I'm now officially under the "210" mark. Which excites me. I can see those numbers 2 - 0 - X staring out at me and I know I will never see another 2 - 1 - X. I vow to never go over the 209 threshold again. It is comforting. It is what keeps me going. Because I know when I can see a 2 - 0 - X, that someday the 2 will permanently be erased on my scale at the front end of my weight and that thrills me. No more going to the doctor and having them look at me and have to clunk that little brick to the 200 slot. Not that they really use those anymore, but somehow my brain got stuck in 1990 and that's the only scale I envision at a doctor's office. Really, they should come up with some digital version of the antique instead of those big digital numbers at the office. Makes it feel like a more genuine experience.....
I began this journey at 224 and now sit at a solid 208.5 which is really only a mere 15 pounds in 25 weeks, or 0.6 pounds per week.
What absolutely thrills me, though? 46.5 total inches off of my body with that 0.6 pounds per week! I am losing a little over 1.5 inches per week. I have nearly lost FIFTY INCHES since I began this journey. What is MOST exciting about that, though...is that most of it is in my tummy area. I no longer measure over "50 inches" in ANY area of my body. My tummy area used to measure at 50 inches. I now have lost 9 inches and only measure at 41.
Even more exciting? Anyone whose got "tummy weight" can understand that belly fat doesn't just..sit there...as you sit down. No, it moves as you move.....so a shirt might look fabulous standing up...but the moment you sit down...you've got more rolls than the pillsbury dough boy. You think...if I can just stand up ALL DAY..nobody will notice. ha!
So now...as I sit..I still have my inevitable "belly fat spread" but I am now SMALLER sitting down than I was standing up when I started in November. I never measured what my "sitting down" tummy measurement was in November, but now it is 48 inches, two inches LESS than what it was standing up in November. So I am pleased to say I am now smaller sitting down than I was standing up....and let's face it....that's progress!!!
Where to from here? My goal is to get to 160. At this rate, it will take me 81 weeks to lose the last 48.5 pounds or December 21, 2013. I guess I need to step up my game a little bit!
