Wonderful Day

Could today have been anymore fabulous?

Probably.

But it was pretty awesome :)

I ended last night with my first work out (which lasted a grand total of 15 minutes before I thought I was going to die!!!). I got all comfy in this amazingly comfortable hotel bed. This bed beats my bed by a landslide. You never realize how horrible your own bed is until you find refuge on another mattress :)

I got a good 8.5 hours of sleep and woke up refreshed and ready to start my day.

I was able to double my workout time from the night before and went for a steady 30 minutes. This was progres and pretty awesome. I had some nice lemon water to start my day and continued drinking it until I reached my goal of 13 for the day.

I felt awesome. I did not get sleepy AT ALL during training today...(which I normally do).

It's the small things that make your day, ya know? I can't remember the last time I felt like I was a part of a group. She probably won't ever know how much those small words meant to me, but they truely touched my heart. I had a great time at lunch with my super awesome turkey sandwich and salad :)  It was so normal..so common...so wonderful.

At the end of the work day, I stepped into my roadworthy shiny Jeep.

My bank account might be negative right now, but I know that it won't be for long. I know my bills are going to get paid. I know that I am making friends and beginning a beautiful journey to finally loose this weight and be the person on the outside, that I know I am on the inside.

I didn't "feel fat" or "gross" at all today, even though I know I haven't lost any weight :) I guess perspective changes everything: feeling in control is so helpful.

This wonderful day...was springboarded by my fabulous 4 day weekend. I got paid by the State of Indiana to spend time with my niece and nephews, my brothers, sister in law, grandparents, cousin, daughter, parents. It was a great way to spend my time. I haven't seen those nephews/neice/sis in law/brother "Pennsylvania People" in a year. It warmed my heart to see them. Spending time with my own daughter was great. We all played a word game and just had a blast.

I feel so lucky, so fortunate, so happy. I know I didn't get here alone.

Today in our training we talked about how when parents have "support systems" and lots of "informal supports" like family and friends, that they are less likely to be abusive to their kids or they are more likely to be able to get out of a bad situation if they do abuse. I know that I am so lucky because I am truely blessed with a large support system.

I may not always have friends, but my family has always been there for me. I love you all..and miss you so much while I am away in Indianapolis training.

Making new friends....has been wonderful. I can't tell you how alone I felt sometimes while stuck at home all the time and unemployed. There is a sense of normalcy and structure I now enjoy that I had been desperately seeking and wishing to attain.